now
i no longer have the choice but to be strong.
i no longer have the choice but to cure this.
i no longer have the choice but to face it.
i went home coz i know that i am no longer able to handle my situation.
see, it is painful.
i am under medication.
i am under construction?!?
hehe. yeah.
it gets tiring taking medicines.
i was so furious last monday evening because i have to take four medicine at once. nice! is it not enough for me to get sick? pain pain pain… when will i be through with this?
i cried taking those medicines and fell asleep.
when i was home i stayed up late watching TV. well i was watching movies from Star Movies and from Discovery Channel. nice, my doctor as me to take enough rest and sleep early. i did not listen. do i want things to be more complicated? of course not. am struggling hard. really hard.
how can life be so harsh? how can it be so harsh for me and for the people i love? will i just stop loving them? i think i already know the answer. i only needed to review it. haha. am laughing but it wasn’t what i really feel.
